Walking out of her house that crisp spring evening is an experience I replay time and time again. The reality of letting go of a hand you know as well as your own, never to hold again is a truth which never dissolves. However if I could have ran back and had the moment to express to you my gratitude and endearment I don't know that I would've had the strength, but time has allowed me this gift now.
Reflection is a gift best paired with time. A deep understanding of the ones we love and their impact in our lives are always examined with more clairty as days have passed. My friend, I always admired your blessing of making everyone feel as if they were the best people with which to spend your time. To be around you was soothing, inviting, and the reason why humans of all walks of life gravitated to you. I was not born with such a natural gift, but because of witnessing your beautiful actions I have made it a priority to emulate such positivity in my interactions with others.
Positivity, even in your most daunting days, radiated from your soul. I lived in awe of this strength. You found the aspects of life that were worth hanging your hat on even though no one would have faulted you for the opposite. But this was your attitude at this point in your life because it had always been the way you lived your life. There was not a day in your time on this Earth that your gorgeous smile did not frame your face. Every conversation we had began with an incomparable, "Hi Yar." Two small words could lift me from the darkest days, and speaks volumes about your spirit. This is what I strive for now in my life, the recognition that greeting a loved one in your life could put their restless mind at ease.
As beautiful as you were physcially, it could not hold a candle to your spiritual beauty. So on this your 35th birthday I am comforted by the realiztion that this beauty is not gone but surrounds me and all of those that were so influenced by your life everyday.
